AVERY ELIZABETH... 1 month old

Avery turned 1 month old today. Wow, how time flies! It's so sad, but at the same time sweet because she is starting to show her true colors already. I have already distinguished her sweet cries from gassy, to need changed, to just hungry! She has this adorable cry where she will say, "GARRRRR"... and it's the sweetest noise to my ears.. and this one is, "I want my passy and I want it now Momma"!!!

The first 2 weeks were so hard. I am not going to lie! As I said in my previous post, it's a total adjustment. Almost like someone losing a ton of weight and trying to figure out who they are in this different body... that is a great way to describe how I felt the first 2 weeks; in a different body, and a different person. Several of my friends are pregnant and have asked me how I have adjusted, what to look for in signs of depression, etc... and honestly I can just say if there is anything that doesn't seem like "you"... look into it a little further. As the first 2 weeks were something different for me because I woke up with a baby after 4 years of being alone with my hubby and 27 years of my life with just me, it is still amazing and like anything else new in your life it's going to take time to adjust to that change. I new I was going to be okay at the 3 week mark when I felt like being out like I always did, wanted to get ready and take a shower, and of course could get myself out of bed and pick up, even if it was just a little. I am still not ready to be miss suzy homemaker and start cooking meals everyday, but I am feeling my upbeat self and loving life tons! Trust me, I have had my broken down days where I just cry on and off... but I think it's more tears of joy. Some days I just still can't believe that she is finally here, and some days I just have a hard time knowing I can't jump into the car and go. I have to worry 100% about her safety and her well being and if she is fed, changed, and comfy!

I still have 2 weeks until I am able to do more so until then I am pondering making mental lists of what I want my weeks to look like following. Being a stay at home mom is a full time job and I want to make sure my days are full of tasks. I will have those occasional nap days and relaxing days, but for the most part I want to take full responsibility of the household in doing gardening, cleaning, cooking, grocery shopping, etc... So I am trying to plan the best day for a WMT shopping day. If anyone has any suggestions on the most quiet day to go, let me know. Apparently that day isn't Wednesday because I went today and it was nutso city! Peeps were everywhere and mean too! I covered Avery up and had it set in my mind that if anyone touched the cart I was going to have a panic attack, ha! I hand sanitized EVERYTHING when I walked in and I noticed people at the McDonalds staring at me thinking, "She is a new mom"... but I didn't care one bit. You can tell I am a new mom because I have this adorable little crown diaper bag and it's packed full as if we were going on a huge weekend trip! I took my little list and off I went, $100.00 later walking to my car having a horrible hormonal sweat breakdown! UGG... for all you ladies that are about to have a baby, get ready- the hot flashes get worse! Also, I suggest parking near the cart holder because I stood there for 5 mintues trying to figure out what to do... do I put her in the car and start it so she doesn't get hot? But then I can't leave her because you just don't do that!! Do you leave her in the cart while you put the bags in the car then take the cart with her in it and carry her back? Lordy! It was hectic so just park NEAR a cart stand!!!

Avery found her finger yesterday and sucks on it all the time! She is just the cutest baby and absolutely wonderful. She sleeps 5 hours through the night at a time and I only get up once right smack in the middle of the morning hour when nothing is on TV! We are truly looking forward to the fun that is ahead of us in raising this beautiful girl. I have to say, I am a little attached.... Hope you enjoy the pics- I added a sneak peek of the tutu I made her for the 4th of July.. I have a full outfit ready for her including a bow that mimi made for her!