Happy New Year Bloggers!
First....
A video I wanted to share that is my heart for 2013! I hope you find comfort in how amazing this is & will try to apply it toward your life!
We rung in the New Year with Chad's family & had such a great time playing games & cards. I enjoyed spending the evening with family & being with Avery, it was fun & a tradition I would like to start!
With a new year we always have "new resolutions". To be honest I started some new resolutions for me personally beginning in September 2012 when my Dad had heart surgery.
As the song I shared above is "Awake my soul", I have to say that during this time of my life God "WOKE ME UP".
I feel like He had a master plan to use me specifically during & after the trials I endured with my Dad to where I am presently in my life in this moment.
Sometimes in life we ask "Why do bad things happen to good people, & why do good things happen to bad people?" I think there is a time in
all of our lives that we have thought that & asked God WHY while thinking this season in life just isn't fair. I have even heard people say, "Well is there a God out there if so why would God cause such pain to myself, my life, my health, my family even through death?"
I cannot speak specifically for anyone but me personally in that above statement so hear it is:
I HAVE experienced exactly what I just said before September 2012 when God drastically changed my heart. It wasn't until I endured the pain of heartache that God started to work in my life. You would think at that time in my life I would have been angry, and sometimes people do get angry & run from God. But just as we endure bad days, we have seasons of our lives where we are being tested, molded & changed to new life.
Shortly after his surgery watching two of my friends deal with the tragic loss of their husbands brought that question again to my mind, WHY? It wasn't until December that I finally found
peace with
why God's timing is pure & precious. Through both of the men that passed, I KNOW there were people that needed to hear God's word that did & were lead to Him; I personally found peace with my life after death, finding comfort in my eternal life when I die. I was always scared of that; & finally became at peace with it through Him.
You see God started my journey with Him of "knowing Him" & "seeking Him" in September; where I was tested & had to have faith that his hand was on my healing Dad. I spent 15 days in prayer scared of the unknowns with his health & if he would ever be "Dad" again. I cried for days & during those moments realized that it was a shame I called myself a christian but was only reaching out to Him during the utter most tragedy of my life. He taught me & is continuing to teach me humility before Him, the power of prayer in good & bad seasons of life, forgiveness of others, as well as life through death.
Even crazier it's neat for me to see God's journey & how He is molding me into a stronger woman for Him. I JUST started a study this week on James with my Woman's Bible Study class & WOW. It is a Beth Moore series & WOW! It is EVERYTHING God was trying to prepare me for from September until now. He says, "Humble yourselves before me & He will lift you up in honor." I feel like my walk just began but for the past few months he was calling me to seek Him first through faith & humility before him giving him my burdens, & now the magic begins, a true relationship with my Father.
I have had tons of e-mails on blogging & where I am these days...
I use to blog so often but honestly God has called me to put down the camera a bit, & chill with Him. I'm human don't get me wrong I still take my pictures on my phone everyday, & post them & love every second of my life with my family & child, and sharing it! But, for me personally with my camera I was spending so much time editing, carrying the thing around everywhere & focusing on what to take pictures of next. I have learned to utilize my phone camera & post things quickly so I am not so consumed with being on my computer all day. I am sure one day I will be taking more pictures & posting more about our life; but for now in THIS particular season of my life, I feel called to be more still & in "the now moment" of where I am in my life & walk with Christ.
I am human. I am a sinner I am by no means perfect. But I desire a relationship that is better than what I have been giving God & He deserves that from me. I hope you too will take part in some of the things I have said & "AWAKE your soul & let God breathe on you, & let him speak to you"...
Happy 2013, I love you!